The Nobody.

For what’s it worth,
We desperately want ourselves,
To be remembered,
To be loved,
To be beloved to somebody else.

In the end.
We are only somebody.
To somebody who really cares.
As to the rest,
We are nobody but everybody.

# Its this vicious cycle of the person you love not loving you back, but the person who is nobody, loves you like crazy!

Impressions from a changing soul.

Time passes over my mind, listening to a million voices instead than mine.

ME and I. I and ME

I’m waiting for the moment that will set us free.

I know my past, my scars and my soul

but my voice stuck, can’t come out of my throat

Dense in my emptiness- I witness the present

lost in my weakness

sliding into confusion.

Where’s my will, where’s my SELF.

I’ve lost my consciousness, I’m traveling blind.

Searching in others what I wish to be mine

Exploiting or exploited, doesn’t matter where you stand it’s what’s in your mind.

That makes you take a stand, but when you’re left alone with your own thoughts,  you wish I was you and you were me.

Waiting for the moment that will set us free.

Courage and fears taken by the hand, will led us to change this land.

For the million have fought for they’re in us.

And now it’s our turn, against greedy ghosts with no return.

{Oh Souls}

Give us strength to look inside.

Find there’s no reason to be terrified energies surround us and won’t stop to be, we’re just little things that have come to see.

What is around us by mirrors, it’s not reality what we’re in, we construct and destroy like toddlers with legos our universe is only our ego.

I want my mind to find another way to understand what took us away from each other, from nature and the world.

Breaking the glass, opening windows, see the world as big as my heart we are one but we wont be until the moment we let OUR SOULS free.

Our souls free…

Nothing to see here.

I’m actually being literal, I know. “Nothing to see here”. But I’m just in that mode again, the unstable state of mind of where I am in life. It’s not about what happened to me. More like, ‘who am I, really?’ kind of mind.

Surrounded by all that I pleased
I sat facing the sea,
Wind swept through me,
Leaving so much to be…
Thoughts tumbled in my mind when life was busy playing its part.
Thinking that time flies,
It was already seven from five.
Days are just passing so quickly,
You don’t even come to know and it’s another morning lately…

Exactly a year ago same time, same place I was with the one I thought I’d spent my life with & today I don’t exist for that “so to be very special kith”. Life has changed drastically all this while.
Thinking about all that gives me a ride. So many promises broken, so many memories left to be cherished… deep in my heart locked in a corner.

Trying to be so happy and cheerful outside, I was that girl in my own little world of thoughts. Trying to find my own identity in this busy world. I came across this thought(in punjabi) which cleared every doubt leaving behind that satisfaction, long awaited.

” Teri kismat da likha tere to koi kho nai sakda, Je usdi meher hove te tenu o v mil jae, jo tera ho nai sakda”

This means, nobody can change what you have in your destiny, in god’s grace, you get even what is not in your share. Believe in him and the impossible can also be possible.

All the thoughts which tumbled through all day long came to an end, as I decided not to think over all this again. I know gods with me and maybe this was a message from him. With a positive thought I start my day, hoping there’s everything good all way.
Its a new start, a new beginning. 🙂

Magic? is it?

Think about it: It all just feels so fake, you know? This idea that good things happen to good people. That there’s magic in the world, and that the meek and the righteous will inherit it. Too many good people suffer for that to be true. Too many prayers go unanswered. And every day it just gets worse. Every day we ignore how truly broken this world is, and we tell ourselves it’s all going to be okay. But it’s not going to be okay. And once you know that, there’s no going back.

There’s no magic in the world…at least today there isn’t..