A life I wouldn’t mind living.- Completely zoned out!

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Can I live a life surrounded by night, I ask.
The earth covered in serenity,
Where I hear total silence
& I’m left there sitting alone?

Can’t I lay back & watch the stars?

The wind whispering stories of where it has been
And the moon letting me dive into the deepest thoughts…

Where I find peace, where I dwell in serenity…

I want to fade away in the darkness and forget everything.
And live a life I wouldn’t mind living…

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Watching Death

Candle, your life. One blow and its dark.

Candle, your life. One blow and its dark..

Seeing someone die, right before your eyes.

Moment of his death, I was by his side. 

 

When the heart beat slows, soon will be the end.. 

But do they go away, to a better place in the end? 

 

Wish I could believe, something more exists.

Heart beat fades away, not long to the end.

 

Part of me upset, at the loss of him.

Yes he was a stranger, but shared with me his last grin, 

Which was just an empty shell, wishing for the end…

 

Did not look in pain, just looked fast asleep.

Listening to the sound, I hear the final beep.

Nothing but machines, almost at the end…

 

I was numb. Shivering.

You should never see, you should never know.

Looking into death, watching someone go..

 

Then the heart beats gone, know that is the end…

My First Prom.

Standing in front of the door, its him.
Nervous.
I hold myself confident as I go down the stairs.
Reticent.
My friend gazes with her narrowed eyes.
Tension or envy?
Butterflies in my stomach..
Those words she said run through my mind.

I flush, I look down…
Ashamed.. Blushing..
He stares at me with uncertainty.
Why did he have to ask me?

My friend acts so sweet.
If only she was always like this.
If only she knew the real ‘me’ that I do.

I smile at him as he grins with pride.
Regret and anxiety pierce my mind,
As I am being tortured with words spoken.
But it doesn’t bother me.
Hiding scars and hiding fears,
Appearing beautiful and unbroken.

He puts his arm around me.
We laugh the time away.
Sadness and her words are forgotten.

Finally, the last step…ready!
He opens the door for me;
And we arrive to prom with stares.
He grabs my hand, and helps me.
Our name is being shouted with awe.

We go inside with many girls in dresses.
They all are so pretty and so happy.
All smiles and laughter, no room for fear
A full time show with the stage following me.
I can do this.
*Deep breath*

As we were guided to the dance room,
I couldn’t help but gaze at the beauty.
Balloons, flowers, dimmed lights.
My first prom.

Time was passed right before my eyes.
Going by unnoticed with laughter, dancing,
Pictures and poses, compliments, friends,
Happiness…….memories to cherish.
My first prom.