What goes around comes around!

what goes around comes around

Everything in life seems to run in a circle, coming around to the place it began. As a sequence of events, that is repeated again and again.

The earth spins around as it travels around the sun. The seasons begin, spring, summer, autumn, winter, starting the cycle around again.

Although our time pieces differ in shape and sizes, but time travels around from day to night and night to day. Birds build their nest in a circle. Many birds fly around and around.

Without round wheels we wouldn’t be able to transport people, merchandise and equipment or steer without a round steering wheel. Trees are round although some are proportional. Many times we come around to others way of thinking.
Water comes into the home by round tubing.  Water; whether hot or cold, it’s a round apparatus that lets water in  by turning it around and water when draining  goes around and around into a drain hole, that’s round.
When speaking with people, many times we go around in circles, before we say what we wanted to, especially if it’s a girl or boy we like or love. When anyone has ever been hit by another person, it’s a round fist that hits us, if using their hand.
When you are dizzy your head spins around and around before you fall down to the ground. A ball is round, a bat is round, a coin is round, heads are round even though we call some people, squares.
Being round, is it a coincident, a fact or is there a mystery unknown to our intellect. Let this go around and around in your head, before you come around.

What’s holding you back?

That’s a good question. As I listen to my music when I’m alone– my mind wonders elsewhere. That’s….normal for virtually everyone. So what’s holding me back from moving on? What I think it is, (that I’ve come to realise), is that I dwell….And once I start dwelling, it becomes a step-backwards because it’s hard to accept. Despite the fact that I am over the person, I haven’t accepted the fact that that’s what had happened to me. I always get flabbergasted at the thought of what happened…. and silly me, blames herself.

 

Dwelling
The position or state of being engrossed in a memory of the past. To live in a certain situation. Isolated as a lingerer, and subjectively proven to be difficult to get out of. That’s what I tend to do when I’m in my own world. Remembering the past. Going through what happened. What could’ve happened. What didn’t happen. And what was hoped to happen. Once you get into that state of mind, all hell breaks loose.

Negativity comes to play. Doubt. Confusion. Anger. This puts you in a position difficult to accept.

Acceptance
The attitude of identifying the situation and acknowledging it despite whether it was wrong or right, bad or good. That’s something that will indeed take me to the next step of moving on.

So what have I done so far to help fuel my confidence to move on?
I’ve removed all record of photos and archived to a space where I wouldn’t access. I’ve started meeting new people, hanging out with new friends, trying to keep myself busy and what not. So far so good?

    

In a nutshell, yes. Outside the nutshell in essence, makes me vulnerable. The unknown world of dwelling and absence of acceptance.

But the hardest thing to erase, is the memory itself. Actually, I don’t think it can be erased. A memory is a memory. If I was a computer I’d reformat myself. But it just doesn’t work that way lol.

So really, acceptance is the key. That then becomes the pinnacle moment of who I will become. In the end, it really is all down to me! I can either accept myself with a negative or positive attitude, or accept the reality of this world. And what’s that reality? Well, lets look into that another day…

Memories

Deep within each and every one of you is the memory of times past. A time of peace and love and joy. When that was all that was. A time of complete knowledge of the connectedness of all things. A time of At-one-ness.

It is possible for you to draw on those memories now. And now is the time to do so. Many of you have diverted from your path, from your initial reason for coming into being on this plane. It is easy to do, we understand, with the heaviness and the illusion of separateness.

The truth is that you came here to learn, to serve and to better understand the workings of the universe. Take the blinders off and open your eyes so that you can better see what surrounds you. Shake your heads and clear your minds so that the knowledge you seek can better flow within you. Open your hearts so that you can feel the love that abounds. Not only from others in human form, but from all living entities here. From your plants, your trees, your furry creatures, your rocks, from Mother Earth. From everything that surrounds you.

Do you often get a sense of recognition at a time you least expect it? Do you often get a sense of longing for what, you do not know? Do you often hear a gentle voice guiding you in your daily lives? Remember, see and feel these emotions. They will help you to move back onto your path from which some of you have strayed.

Consider a child playing contentedly, who is then distracted by a shiny object. You are like that child who started on her path, but who was distracted by false promises. Return to us and to the path you came to walk. Stop, breath and remember from where you came and the course you came to travel.

We talk not of human memories, but of memories of times before your existence here upon this plane. Those memories are there, deep within each and every one of you. And when you catch a glimpse of one, you will be moved to tears. From the complete and utter simplicity of joy and love that fills that memory. Allow those memories to slowly surface. And you will better see the illusions of your ways here upon this physical plane. It is time to do so.

You are brave souls to have chosen this path. For the feeling of separateness here is more challenging than in other worlds. But this was your choice to come here. You knew it was only for a short period of time and you knew to where you would return. We applaud you for being here and support your choice. We are also your connection to your existence before and after your time here upon this plane.

Understand that this existence is only a temporary part of your journey. You have many wonderful experiences yet ahead of you and behind you. Remember who you are, and the power which is yours. Stop the self judgment, the comparisons, the worry. You are exactly where you should be at this very moment. And though the human body is fragile, you, in your true and natural form are perfect. You are light and love and joy. Tend the fragile vessel in which you live. But understand that you are far more than this vessel. You are so much greater than that.

Allow the memories to flow and you will begin to understand. You are here to learn, to love, to grow. And when you return into our arms you will say, ‘Ah, that was quite a ride!’

Magic? is it?

Think about it: It all just feels so fake, you know? This idea that good things happen to good people. That there’s magic in the world, and that the meek and the righteous will inherit it. Too many good people suffer for that to be true. Too many prayers go unanswered. And every day it just gets worse. Every day we ignore how truly broken this world is, and we tell ourselves it’s all going to be okay. But it’s not going to be okay. And once you know that, there’s no going back.

There’s no magic in the world…at least today there isn’t..

Reason for my tears..

You will never know the reason for my tears
what lives inside
and haunts my dreams
the past, the pains and fears.

You will never know the reason for my tears
I will hide them
I will lie
I’ve done this for many years.

Accept that you will never know
accept what I will share
for if you knew the me inside
I somehow doubt you’d care..

I close my eyes (:

I close my eyes
I imagine us entwined
I imagine us survive
I wish this magic wouldn’t ever die

And it did
It lied and you never cried
Why didn’t you show more?
Who am I kidding- there was nothing more.

I’m broken inside
I sigh, you leave and that’s the goodbye.
Why did you make me want you more?
Who am I kidding- you don’t want this anymore.

And I miss us-
When I close my eyes-
I miss us.

Your scent lingers longer
And the stent of old magic overpowers the hunger.
The hunger for you.
When I close my eyes
You hold me still.
That old familiar warmth of you remains, still.

I’m restless,
When I close my eyes.
This love is tasteless,
When I close my eyes.

Nothing can hide my sadness
Even when I close my eyes
They open to Love’s fairy tales and
Our futures’ lies..